One Step Is Enough!!!

I got up the other day and I was feeling blah, as per usual lately.  ( The reason I lost my job). 

Although I love being home in my safe bubble.  My happy space. 

But like I have been saying, I’ve dealt with depression since after my child was born.  Post Partum Depression that just didn’t go away.  I’d already had anxiety since a child but  started rearing its ugly head again after about thirty years.  So now it’s meds for all this wonderful stuff…and menopause…and meds for that too.  

So waking up feeling blah in the morning, that’s kind of normal lately.

But it’s more than that… 

it’s the short attention span,

The fight with your brain to move,

the boredom, 

No desire to do anything.

The “i just can’t” feeling. 

Full speed ahead in my head…But my body says nope. I don’t even feel like moving some days. 

I’m sitting in my comfy spot, sipping my coffee, feeling useless because why can’t I get this stuff done? 

Why is it so hard to do things I’ve always done?

Why does just sitting here feel wrong but good?

Why am I struggling with so much lately? 

So I said to myself “Kathy…..one step is enough!”  ( I knew it was me because I recognized my voice!!! Hahahahahahaha)

That’s it. One step.

 I got up, I walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower.

that’s it, just turned it on.  

I can turn it back off again and go sit back down, or I can get in.

I got in,  I just stood there. 

Well since I’m here…

I washed my hair. 

Then my body. 

Then I shaved. 

Then I was doing some exfoliating. 

Then my favorite face wash, the original Noxema.

I was so proud of myself!!!   Only one step.  I can turn around.  I don’t have to follow through. And that’s what worked for me. 

One Step Is Enough!!

So what do you do…….just to get started on blah days?